ElleB-dom: Diva In Training

New Home - For Real this time!

2007-06-02T10:33:00.001-07:00

Check me out at 'Diva In Training' here.
Update your links with the new address: http://www.elleb-music.com/divaintraining

See ya at the new spot!

Once Again...

2006-11-27T22:15:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to let yall know (the five people still reading *wink* that I am moving to a new home...well, my blog is at least. The new site is elleb-music.com/blog.

This page will automatically re-direct...but in case, you get email updates or whatever, I wanted to notify ya'.

Ciao for now.

elle

Happy Thanksgiving...

2006-11-22T14:44:00.000-08:00

2006 has been a crazy year for me. Although it is not over yet, I can't help but reflect on the progress that I made in my career this year. I have learned many invaluable lessons professionally, but I must say, that it has been my personal triumphs and lessons that have taught me the most.

In 2006, I made the transition from being a full-time corporate employee to a self-employed singer/songwriter and entrepreneaur. I have learned about self-motivation and perserverance and what demons have kept me from accomplishing more. I have also learned the true value of friendship - as my friends are my foundation and my extended family - they have and will continue to support me and lift me up on this journey.

I have grown more confident in my skills and ability as a songwriter. I have taken up learning the guitar to take me over the threshold of being a novice to being a skilled musician. I am laying the groundwork for a long and prosperous career. I am so thankful for being able to take advantage of the opportunity that my youth grants me to pursue my love of music...entertainment...singing.

So, on Thanksgiving Eve, I say thank you for joining me, watching me, listening to me in 2006. I wish you a safe and fun-filled holiday season. And I will see you in 2007.

Ciao,
Elle B.

I'm bizack...

2006-11-20T00:06:00.000-08:00

after a short break...I'm ready to start blogging again. I'm not sure with what regularity, because I've been outta the habit for a minute. But I'm ready to get on with it - look for a new design soon.

ciao,
elle

Come Join Me For a Second Time....

2006-10-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

Sunday, October 29, 2006 @ BB. Kings. Opening for Jaguar Wright...

Tickets:
Pre-Sale $20
VIP $40 | Included Guaranteed Seating (VIP tickets must be purchased by Wed. 10.25)

Elle B. VIP Ticket Special: Purchase your Pre-Sale or VIP tickets by Wednesday October 25 and receive a FREE CD Sampler for my forthcoming album, The Girl Next Door.

*hollar at me with questions info@elleb-music.com*

One for the trouble...

2006-10-06T23:12:00.000-07:00

two for the show, three to get ready, and here we go. I'm doing it again, folks! Visit my website, to purchase tickets online.

Hit me at elleb.music@gmail for more information or general inquiries.

Murphy's Law

2006-10-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

Murphy's Law : Everything that can go wrong will go wrong.
(but the cream still rises to the top).

Yo, from jump it seemed as though the performance was doomed to failure. Most of the audience didn't know what drama I went through before even hitting the stage.

1. Background singer and Musical Director - late.
Ricky got lost going to swoop DC in Pasadena. As a result, we miss sound check.

2. Drummer is a no show
I call his a$$ at 7p wondering where he is (at this point he too has missed sound check which was supposed to have been at 6:40). He tells me he's at rehearsal for his other band Castro. I tell him to hurry and get to BB Kings, which he never did. I got some pathetic email from him Monday morning with a lame as apology.

3. The Money was funny
Without going into details about tickets, ect. you just need to understand that the LA music scene is whack! Because unless you are the headliner, you've got to pay to play. Whether its a guruantee in ticket sales or a fee to participate... To make a long story short, I exceed expectations for ticket sales, but the cat who booked the gig was confused about what I owed the promoter. I thought something was funny about the situation, but writing another $250 check wasn't.

4. DC's keyboard went down right before the set.
Fortunately, I had to keyboard players in the band, so they played on the one working set of keys.

So I go on with no drummer - the promoters don't care. The sooner they can make it through the opening acts, the sooner the people can get to Raheem DeVaughn. Fortunately for me, Alex the base player knows one of the drummers from the other band, so he jumps in on Ain't Gonna Cry - about 1/3 of the way through my set.

The mix coming through my monitors was terrible - so I had to oversing my parts for fear that the audience couldn't hear me. I couldn't hear myself.

With all of that said and done - I had a great time. I had a lot of fun on stage and can't wait to do it again.

There are some photos posted in my albums. And video will be on myspace + youtube soon.

Special Thanks to FLR for holding me down. She's getting the hang of this manager thing...

Thanks for everyone who came out to support me. I hope you enjoyed the show and we plan to do it again real soon.

Showstopping...

2006-09-11T08:47:00.000-07:00

yeah....if you are in LA - PLEASE COME OUT TO SUPPORT! Get at me elleb.music@gmail.com for tickets.

Ciao, Elle

Bye for now...

2006-08-29T11:07:00.000-07:00

Hello all~

I am closing the blog for a couple of months. As you notice - there have been very few posts lately. I am 'Under Construction' so to speak. Only positive progression of course. I hope you will visit me again once I re-launch. I won't be gone too long, I promise.

I'll leave with this quote:

‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?

You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others.’

- Marianne Williamson in Return to Love: Reflections on a Course in Miracles

Peace.

Other places to check me:

www.elleb-music.com
www.myspace.com/mselleb
www.RedRibbonDr.com

I'm gonna be a Shirelle, I think...

2006-08-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

I went on an audition yesterday for a play called, "The Shirelles." The Shirelles pre-date The Supremes and are credited with being the first of the black girl group trend. Some of the songs they made famous are: Momma Said, Tonight's The Night, Big John.

I say I think I got the gig because I audition by myself and not with a group of girls - which I thought was interesting. Either way, I've made it to the "next" phase, which is being called "rehearsal" but only the singers, not the rest of the cast. I'll keep yall posted.

Thanks to my friend DC for hooking me up with the audition.

Sup Yall...

2006-08-17T12:14:00.000-07:00

I know it's been a while since I've really posted anything. That's partially because I haven't felt like blogging lately. So much has been going on in my music life that I feel as though there isn't enough time to recount all the details and share with you. For that, I'm sorry. I shouldn't neglect the blog.

Well if you've noticed, I added a new feature to the site - a calendar. In a previous post, I mentioned that I was considering moving to NYC. Well, a certain person has committed to moving with me in Spring 2007, so more or less, it's official. Well nothing is official until I'm there, but that's the plan.

So, from now on, I will be focusing on the blog on my regular goings-ons, but also, my progress as I head to NY. You'll see little dates on the calendar that will correspond with a specific goal.

I hope you enjoy and thanks for joining me for the journey. And as always - I'd love to hear from you.

Peace,
Elle.

Now THIS is the Beyonce I was waiting for...

2006-08-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

I've Made Up My Mind...To Define My Own Destiny...

2006-08-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks Brian for your comment on the last post about "risk." Thanks Stevie for reminding me that "greater risks yeild even greater rewards." Thank you to my friends who have listened to me sway back and forth between staying in corporate america or leaving. And most importantly, I thank God for answering my prayer. Because although I had faith that he has a plan for me, I prayed that he would give me the eyes to see, the ears to hear and the mind to understand (at least partially) the plan he'd ordained.

Finally, I've come to a decision...

I have decided that I will not pursue other job opportunities within my current organization, nor will I pursue (at the present time) a 40 hour-a-week desk job. I am finally making the leap to pursue music full-time.

This moment in my life has been in the making for at least a decade.

I'd been hesitant to come to this decision initially because simply "taking time off to do music" didn't really seem like the right course. But yesterday it occurred to me, there are some goals that I'd set for myself, in terms of music development, that weren't attainable because of my work schedule.

09.16.06 is Liberation Day...

At the end of my 60 days, I've decided to go back to school! Music School! Well, not quite. I am going to create an intensive program through the MGray Music Academy in North Hollywood.

It will consist of the following:
- Private Voice Lessons
- Sight Singing
- Guitar and/or Piano - I'd like to take both, but it depends on finances.
- Singwriting and Composition - I'd like to have a strong focus on melody development

These four areas will help me become a stronger songwriter and a more versatile singer. All of which are necessary to sing for a living....

And then....

I will pick up a job back at Crate and Barrell or ZGallerie or try my hand at waitressing. Either way, I'll need a job that provides me wages plus tip-share or commissions, especially since I am planning to move to NYC within the next 6-8 months. I need to save, save, save!

I've shared the news with my mom - she was speechless initially. She said that she and my father thought I would live a more "traditional life." And I'm sure everything to the point now has led them to believe that I would. But that's just a different generation talking...

More on this later, I need to head to work.

*ciao*

Driving In the Middle of the Road...

2006-08-08T10:09:00.000-07:00

I have been. It's strange too. At first, I thought it was the car that I was driving. While on my trip in NY, I had several studio sessions in New Jersey. So after pulling a 24 hour day, I manned the wheel of my my hosts E-Class on the Jersey Turnpike, headed back to Long Island at 5am. I thought it was a mix of fatigue and fear of big rigs pummelling down the highway at 80mphs that was the root of the problem. Driving in the between the two lanes afforded me the security that I could quickly pick a lane were a trucker come to close. I didn't want to crash such a beautiful car.

But, I've been home for two days now and 2 outta 2 days I've found myself driving in the middle of the road. Unconsciously - but still somehow with a feeling of entitlement. The other drivers will have to go as fast or slow as I chose because I dominate the road.

A trip, right? Yeah - well I've finally realized what it is. Before I left on my vacation to NY, I found out that that I had lost my day-job and was put on 60 days notice. This is something that had been looming for a while and I had a feeling I'd get the axe (being so junior and have a position created for me less than a year prior). But the realization hit much harder than I had anticipated and I was kinda freaked.

I had speculated what I might do, as I knew I'd be given some type of severance package, because after all, I wasn't being fired - I was just "re-organized" out of my jobs. Such is life, right? So although mentally, I was prepared, emotionally I was lagging behind. Losing my job with eight weeks paid salary after my last day provides me with the window of opportunity I was looking for. But financially, it's extremly risky and I don't think I'm truly ready for the lifestyle change. Alternatively, I've been encouraged to apply to new positions within the organization which would give me a signifant pay increase and could provide the resources to save and pay down debt in order to make the leap.

I'm not yet sure what to do.

*what do you think*

Elle B's New York Vacation...

2006-08-01T10:44:00.000-07:00

I didn't really publicize that I was going to be in New York. What started as a trip to visit one friend Michael turned into a birthday trip and then into a business trip, when my girl FLR (aka my East Coast Manager) started connecting with some new producers for me.

I am happy to say that, so far, my trip has not not only been enjoyable *I heart NY* but productive as well. Last night we met up with a producer, SJ, in Jersey and started working on a track called "Holla Back." Here is a clip of the first verse.

We ended up pulling a 24 day, but obviously it was worth it. Like Diddy said - Sleep is for the weak. And we skrong over here! Also, peep some gorgeous pictures of the sunrise on our way back to Long Island.

*Peace.*

It's all about me, me, me, me (c) Mya

2006-07-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

It's my Elle B-Day!
(c) JB on facebook.com

I'm in NYC doing it real big. Hollar at yall later.

*peace*

New Shyt! New Shyt!

2006-07-24T13:39:00.000-07:00

This is my latest song, just in today from the mixer. I don't know how I feel about it - it's missing something I think. That - bounce or punch - something.

"Addict Me"

powered by ODEO

*please be honest with me!*

Did you know?

2006-07-19T12:04:00.000-07:00

It was revealed in 2006 that the Dolls are salaried employees of Interscope Records, giving the label a high level of control over the group's finances and business decisions.

The industry is trying new stuff everyday. Also, this explains Nicole's prominence as singer and songwriter. She's the only member of PCD with writing credit on the album.

*whatchu think about that?*

Can't Say Much...

2006-07-19T10:26:00.000-07:00

But I will say, that everyday my life is changing. Something have been decided for me, while others are the result of preparation and opportunity having a chance meeting.

I hate to be so cryptic and all, but I will have more of an update later today or tomorrow.

*back to work*

[The Movement] Hip-Hop Is Dead.

2006-07-18T12:33:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: I would not describe myself as a hip-hop head or a journalist. I am merely a music-lover & music-maker who loves to observe and discuss the goings-on in Urban Music.

With that said, I’ll say it again:

“Hip-Hop is Dead.”

I have only recently begun to surf the OKP boards after Honorable has sent me several relevant music-related links. Going through the site, I’ve noticed an overwhelming presence of the above statement - Hip-Hop is dead.

Before I give my two cents on the subject matter, I’d like to share with you my initial thoughts:

All urban music is not hip-hop
Hip-hop still persists, but not in the way some would like it to appear in the mainstream
If Hip-Hop is dead, then what are you listening to?

Now, my opinion comes from an artist point of view – still young in the game and with a tendency to look for the silver lining. So with that said, I don’t think Hip-Hop is dead; it’s just in its proverbial teens.

I am 22 – so I am young myself. I didn’t grow up with BDP, Rakim, or Pete Rock; I can’t tell you about the heyday of Hip-Hop. But being 22, I can say that looking back on the times when Hip-Hop was “great,” it appeared to only be in its infancy. What cats are saying about Hip-Hop now is not dissimilar to when my mom recalls how cute I was when I was a toddler.

Before you begin the barrage of comments about how I trivialized Hip-Hop’s significance, think about it. Remember how much you and your folks beefed as adolescents? Or being asked the rhetorical question “If all of your friends jumped off a bridge, would you?” It seems as though Hip-Hop might have answered “yes” and when the opportunity presented itself – willing went over the ledge and plunged to its death…leaving, Hip-Hop, well, dead.

However, I don’t believe that is the case. Instead, Hip-Hop is growing up and doing all the dumb shit adolescents do. I must admit, that is unfortunate that all of these movements look like they should be accompanied by Black Face. But that’s another post topic for another day.

In a recent blog post, Hip-Hop: The New Minstrel Show, writer Khary McGhee reflects on a concert in Fayetteville, NC. Among the Crunk/Snap artists billed for the show was North Carolina’s own, Little Brother – true Hip-Hop purveyors of the present – who received a lack-luster response from the crowd. Khary used this incident as a catalyst to maintain this growing notion that Hip-Hop is dead (or dying) because a “real” Hip-Hop act can get no love, meanwhile, Cadillac Don and J Money (who?…wth!) has the audience going stupid. However, McGhee later proves my point by noting the following:

“As it stands now, rap music is becoming more and more disposable. Great records aren’t being made. Careers are getting shorter and shorter. The music is becoming more homogenous.

In many ways, this period in hip-hop reminds me of the new-age rock period of the 1980s. Remember all of those one-hit wonders? Toni Basil (Mickey), a-ha (Take On Me), Nena (99 Luftballoons), Soft Cell (Tainted Love). In a few years, artists like Dem Franchize Boyz, Yung Joc and the Ying-Yang Twins will join that group of 1980s has-beens as answers as Trivial Pursuit questions.”

So not unlike the Doo Wop movement of the 60s or the new-age rock of the 80s, these movements will come and go, but the true art form will remain. Would we say that Crunk is truly Hip-Hop, anyway? And why can’t you have a little 3-6 Mafia with your Lupe? Aren’t LB and Fiasco signed to Atlantic – a major label?

What we are observing is the necessary transition of “Hip-Hop” which is essential to its commercial viability. With each of the cookie-cuttter acts being signed to regurgitate a movement to the masses, true Hip-Hop acts are given access to the industry in ways unseen before. They, by no means, have the keys to the city, but I think we are moving towards maturity.

In closing, Hip-Hop is not dead – it’s evolving. Hip-Hop is still here – the good, the bad, and the snapping.

S.E.X. is Fiya!!!

2006-07-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

So I know that I all kinds of late on Lyfe Jennings because I heard his album for the first time only recently. I really enjoy his sound and his message because it's real. My only quip is that a lot of his songs lack strong melody which makes listening more like a chore after several listens - however, it wasn't enough to turn me off.

The first single from his new album is S.E.X. which has a great message. Fortunately for me, this song has a strong melody and a strong message. I am happy to know that Lyfe made some improvements but maintained what made him appealing to me in the first place. Let me know whatchu think!!!

And for the heck of it because i love Fanny.

*peace*

Quote of the day...

2006-07-13T12:42:00.000-07:00

Being an artist is not about the end result, instead, it's about the journey.

The Audition...

2006-07-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

So today (technically, it would be yesterday) I auditioned for the Elvis tour. Although I don't know whether I was cast or not officially, I'd say that I am not going to get the gig. It's not any reflection on my potential or natural talent, it's just that well, my skills needs work.

Yeah, that's right - my skill needs work. My ear training is not as strong as it once was and I found myself needing just a bit longer than the other vocalists to nail the notes. Although the MD was a sweetheart, easing my harmonic discontent initially, I felt as though I was out of my league.

Years ago this would have been classified as a train wreck - immaturity would have veiled it as such. Instead, however, I am prompted to add a few items to my 'Summer Action Plan' in order to get my skill sets back up to par.

I will:
- Begin Vocal Training once again
- Teach myself to play the guitar (that I've owned now for quite some time now)

This past Sunday at the studio, I was blown away by how many of the people around me have perfect pitch - or even relative pitch. My freshman year of college was the first time I'd learned that anyone could have perfect pitch - ie hearing a fire alarm and identifying it as a Bflat, maybe. I thought this gift was only bestowed on a rare few musically geniuses, but in fact, it's about practice and persistence.

Why would any of this be relevant you may ask? Why I am so inclined to attain a certain level of skill?

Simply put, I'd like to work in the Music Business and the Record Business. My 'Summer Action Plan' recently only addressed my needs for the Record Business - ie, dance lessons and completing my demo...

You may be wondering what's the difference between the two, but that's a whole other topic for another day.

*Going to Sleep after I tune my guitar*

seven.sixteen.oh-six....

2006-07-11T13:05:00.000-07:00

Forever Young, I Will Be - I'm still a babe at a mere 23!

*come celebrate with me*

Jitters...

2006-07-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

I have a big audition coming up this Wednesday. I am excited and extremely nervous because if this goes well, then I may be very well on my way to singing professionally as a career. The show is an Elvis Tribute. But it's not just a show put together by Elvis enthusiests, it's THE Elvis show.

I spoke with the musical director on Saturday about the tour, the run-down is as follows:

- It will be a two week tour in Austraila and New Zealand.
- I am auditioning for the spot of one of the background singers
- The tour will be in October

The audition is this Wednesday in Burbank at a place called Center Staging. I have four songs to choose from to prepare. Although I think I am going to prepare all of them, just in case things go extremely well.

The down side is that the MD said he already has a girl to sing the "middle" or alto part. I can sing soprano, but only second. So I will try my best - I will practice all of the parts and go in there and do my best.

I feel blessed to even have this opportunity.

Tour Info
Producer's Website
Musical Director's Website

*working and rehearsing*

I STILL Care!!!

2006-07-05T14:09:00.000-07:00

OhWord thinks otherwise:
It's hard to care about outkast anymore by Sacha Orenstein

"Like a more dramatic Tribe Called Quest with pop flair, they managed to drop knowledge and evolve musically without alienating (no pun intended) a core audience of Hiphop fans. Even Erykah Badu’s LSD laced genitals couldn’t ruin the group since Dre took the weirdness in stride and just got iller on the mic."

The Honorable present...
Laugh Now, Cry Later by W. Jelani Cobb

Nothing better illustrates that point than the recent Oprah Debacle.
Prior to last month, if you’d heard that a group of rappers had teamed
up to attack a billionaire media mogul you would think that hip hop
had finally produced a moment of black pride on par with 1968
Olympics. But nay, just more blackface.

My namesake, is back! I know there is hope for me:
Lauryn Hill, Cold Vampin' as seen on OhNoTheyDidn't

The vibe of the evening was clear from the start: Hill, who has often hinted at permanent retirement from popular music, has seemingly rediscovered her vigor for performing live. What isn't clear is what exactly that means: were the rehearsals for a new album? A tour? And what ever happened to the much-hyped, Verizon-sponsored Fugees reunion album and tour that came and went with the ill-received single, "Take it Easy"?

*quintessential*

Sony's Inappropriate Dutch Ad...

2006-07-05T13:11:00.000-07:00

I'm understand both sides of the argument on whether or not this is offensive. Personally, however, I think it is definitely inappropriate.

This ad, while obviously not intended for America must have been discussed in terms of racial connotations at some point. I won't take up a crusade about it - I'll leave that to Jesse Jacksn to take on Sony and their ad agency - however, I do encourage you to peep the article and decide how you feel about this occurance and similar issues that arise relating to images of race that may have deeper undertones.

*peace*

New New New!!!

2006-07-04T20:07:00.000-07:00

Below is a snippet of my newest song. Recorded this last Sunday at the Boom Boom Room in Burbank, CA. This song is a new style for me - seductive and soulful.

This is only a rough mix, but many of you come by here and read about the projects and what not that I've been working on but I haven't heard any new music in the past couple of months.

powered by ODEO

credits:
*track produced by* N. Stewart>>>
*lyrics and melody by* L. Ball and T. Armstrong>>>
*recorded by* C. C. Baliff for Elevated Enterprises>>>
*production assts.* S. Debessai and G. Vitte for Elevated Enterprises>>>

As part of my summer action plan I said that I was going to be recording 5-6 songs for my demo before the end of July. 1 down and 5 to go. This Sunday I'll be recording - "Work It Out" and "All On Your Own"

*enjoy*

Seriously...

2006-07-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

do you see what time it is?

It's 3am here in LA and I just got home. Today (or yesterday, rather), I pulled a 7 hour studio session - starting and completing - Addict Me, a new track for my demo/mixtape/EP/LP. After the studio, we all went to see Superman! I don't know how it is that I am still awake and typing coherently, but this weekend has been nothing short of amazing, not to mention exhausting. Well I am back to the salt mines, er - um, I mean, work in just a few hours. My intern is starting in the morning, so I can't decide to take an impromptu vacation/sick day if I can't manage to open my eyes in the morning.

More details from the weekend coming soon - plus, video!

*holla*

Peep the Banners

2006-06-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

1. The July Birthday Jump Off! - If you are in or around LA, mos def check out Elevatedla's Annual July Birthday Jumpoff. I am a July baby, so you know I plan to do it up big. This year's event is going to be held at the Cabana Club in Hollywood. I was just there this past Monday for Benny Boom's BET Awards Pre-Party - the joint is hot!!!

2. Castro's "Last Chance for Edited Play" - Peep the band Castro's site to download their new EP. This project was two years in the making, but the music is fiyah! I'll probably do a "Don't Sleep On" post soon, but in the meantime check them out. You can download the album for free. (see: Castro banner under blogroll).

*see ya later*

"Do what you believe and Believe in what you do"

2006-06-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

This boy is responsible for the success of this lady.

Ryan Leslie>NextSelection>NS4Life.

*ditto*

It's Not Right, But It's Okay...

2006-06-29T13:36:00.000-07:00

It's not right that I didn't talk to DJ OK first, but it's okay to feel what I feel.

Due to this post - that relationship may be dead in the water.

*time will tell*

Lendale is getting back...

2006-06-28T14:43:00.000-07:00

to normal!

Is it just me...

2006-06-27T15:41:00.000-07:00

or is it also hard for you to believe they are performing "Can't Knock The Hustle?" It looks more like a broadway musical or something. I don't know. This is a new hustle though and Jay's on it.

*one day [I'll] be a star*

You Know I've Been Thinking...

2006-06-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

about this topic alot lately. Sheryl Lee Ralph in an interview touched on the topic in re: to the studio production of Dreamgirls. Check out the interview at C&D or click the photo below to read the relevant part of the interview.

When I referenced my list "of reasons that teetered on self-pity" in this post, skin complexion was among one of those reasons. Not to take anything away from Beyonce - this ain't about her - but there are things that can be observed and are accepted without being said. For me to make mention of them would be to play the victim, a role I've never cared to accept. After all, I've been told time and again that I'm "pretty for a dark-skin girl....very exotic" or something to that affect; therefore, I'm not allowed to complain because I pass that "exception" bar. But it does make me think about how many others will be passed up, hell, or even how many time I may be passed up [again] because I don't fit the "status quo" of beauty.

At the recent BMI event that I attend about two weeks ago a question was raised about the likelihood of new artists being signed off an demo. All of the panelists agreed that it is a very rare occurance because execs are looking for artists to be already be centers of influence (ie. have a following) before they walk through the door. In less than a full breath later, the music-publishing panelist said that the only recent case was Rihanna, but then again when you look at her, how can you NOT sign her?

I would have answered that by saying, if they had actually listened to her demo. Just imagine how many more records she might sell if she had some vocal training? I actually like Rihanna though, but it is an interesting question.

I'm gonna leave it open to discussion.

*ciao for now*

After the Demo It's the Afterparty?

2006-06-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

Um, probably not, but this is still a fiesta! I am estatic that things are getting underway once again. Third quarter of 2006 is looking very promising.

The plan for completing my demo will futher advance my LP. I've decided that instead of putting out an EP as my first record, I'll do an entire LP. I realize that there is really no rush to get the project done.

I've listed my production plan for releases below. While I'll have my demo songs for networking purposes, I will also use them for the mixtape - which will be the Elle B. sampler, so to speak. Over the next couple of months, I am going to continue to create until I have about 12-15 songs that truly represent me as an artist. That is when I'll be ready to release the LP.

1. Complete album quality demo songs.
- There will be about 5-6 of these.
- Deadline: July 30
2. Record and Release an Elle B. mixtape
- Use demo songs as samplers for the mixtape.
- Deadline: September 06' (Labor Day)
3. Release my first LP.
- Deadline: Open-ended. Ideally Fall 06

In the meantime I am going to continue writing (point Creative:2b on my Summer Action Plan). I just got my hands on some great instrumentals and started writing already for the mixtape. Some of the instrumentals I might use are Deja Vu, Turn It Up, Ain't No Other Man, and Promiscious Girl.

*k, I'm done for now*

Whatchu gonna do....

2006-06-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

with that prize money?

As a result of winning Leimert Park Idol, I was award a really pretty trophy and a $1500 check.

I thought about a plasma screen TV for 2.5 seconds but only because I could pay cash for it outright. That might have been a cool experience. But I've actually got a plan to mark some things off of my Summer Action Plan.

Pretty much, I am going to use the $$$ to pay for studio time to complete my demo. I've identified 6 songs I want to complete. Four of the six are already in production, but I now have the resources to get in and add those final touches on the project.
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The six songs and production plan goes as follows:

1. Despite What They Say -
a. Add more vocal arrangement to help build the song to a climax at the end.
b. Will need to bring in additional vocalists for background vocals
c. Re-mix

2. For My Girls -
a. Record live drums
b. Finalize and Record vocal arrangement on the hook
c. Mix

3. Joseph's Song
a. Record live drums to current drum pattern
b. Record live guitar
c. Maybe re-record some parts of the song
d. Re-mix

4. Addict Me
a. Develop vocal arrangement
b. Record lead and background vocals
c. Mix

5. Work It Out
a. Develop vocal arrangement
b. Record lead and background vocals
c. Mix

This knocks off point Creative:1a. from my action plan. I am also going to enroll in some dance classes - point Creative: 3a. and have my business cards made - point Professional: 3c.

*going to get caffeine*

I Won!

2006-06-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

I'm not Fantasia or even Kelly Clarksen, but I am the winner of Leimert Park Idol. Woohoo.

I wasn't sure that I'd win. The first two days of competition felt like a breeze. Most likely because I performed my own material. Then on Thursday night at rehearsal for this weekend's two days of competition, somethings happened.

1. I went deaf. Not literally, but I had a really hard time "hearing" myself in order to get through Sophisticated Lady - one of the most difficult songs I've ever sung.

2. My back went out. Not in the "senior-citizen-I-may-need-a-walker" way, no. It was a muscle spasm in my lower back probably the result of working too hard (and doing something wrong) at the gym. I had to walk about a 1/4 mile to my car hunched over like Quasimoto. Not kidding.

So once Friday's competition came along, I felt less than subpar - donning an aching back and a faulty ear as I took the stage to sing Sophisticated Lady for the first time in my life.

That's my little antecdote. I did feel absolutely terrible, but afterwards one of the judges told me the performance was "flawless." There.You.Have.It.

*back to eating my oatmeal and cleaning out my inbox*

Meet my buddies...

2006-06-21T11:30:00.000-07:00

Jay and Amir.

[thx honorable]

*reasonable doubt 10 yrs anniversay this weekend - i need to be in ny*

Er'Day I'm Hustlin'...

2006-06-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

Or so it seems.

At the BMI event I attended last week, the panelists spoke about the importance of an artist's team. Me and FLR have been talking a lot lately about what my next steps are to get things poppin' It's no secret to the people around me - co-workers included - that I'd soon like to quit the 40 hour/wk gig and pursue music 100% of the time. It's also no secret that I won't be able to pull that off on my own, working 40-hours/wk. So I need to reconvene my former team and figure out where adjustments or additions need to be made.

Here's my 'Action Plan:'

Creative Team:
1. Producers: My producers are pretty good - but I've found that each one is limited in some capacity that continues to lead to incomplete projects (songs). So my goal for my producers is two-fold:
a. Create small recording budget to complete all incompleted songs.
b. Network to meet new producers to create new music and continue to develop my sound.

2. Songwriting: Tuna Butter and I have forged quite a productive songwriting relationship. DJ OK and I are looking to create a catalog of material for placement and try to get some publishing money generated. And Goldfingaz and I have a promising future. Here are my plans
a. Continue to write lyrics and melodies weekly - at least one new song/concept a week.
b. Write songs for other artists/singers to adapt to different song styles.
c. Network to meet new songwriters to better my skills
d. Take a commercial songwriting class - I need to write better hooks.

3. Other:
a. Dance, Dance, Dance: Research and enroll in a weekly dance class to assist with stage presence and all around movement. I never considered myself a dancing/pop act, but it can't hurt to do more than my "step-in-the-name-of-love" groove.
b. Styling: While I already have a stylist, we need a budget and we need to aggressively solicit designers to outfit me for performances and photo ops.

4. Photographer: I haven't decided whether I am going to take another shoot since my hair is short because quite frankly I think I might reinstate the weave this fall. In any event, here is what needs to happen.
a. Select additional photos from shoot with jeromeduchange.com for my files
b. Network with new photographers to experiment with new looks.

Professional Team:
1. Manager: I need a manager, ASAP. While my mom was my "interim-manager" she's not in a place in her life where she can effectively pull off this role. In dealing with new opportunities that arise and even strumming up new opportunities, a manager is necessary.
a. Research management pros and cons
b. Research managers/management companies

2. Public Relations: I have a publicist so I am good in this area. I just need to be doing something to give her something to do.

3. Marketing & Promotions: My marketing/promotions company is Elevatedla.com. My biy, GV, has great ideas but as with my publicist, there isn't much to market or promote right now. However some things I'd like for us to pursue in the near future:
a. Elle B. hosting weekly Urban music talent night
b. Creating an action plan/distribution stream to DJs of mixtape and Elle B. single
c. Elle B. branding - business cards done ASAP. Collateral and premium concepts and design for LP release.

These are my action plans for the summer. Between now and labor I look to have 100% of these items attended to.

*ciao for now*

The Development Dilemma

2006-06-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

So it's hard updating this thing when life travels at the speed of light, but a couple of things have happened since I last posted (barring the last post of course).

So my good friend, FLR, recently completed her first year of law school and is now back home in NYC interning in the legal department for a couple of labels. She has a friend who works at the label that I auditioned with back in February. Now, if you have been keeping up with me, then you know this is somewhat of an on-going saga, mostly for me though because I am the one trying to break into the industry.

Well it just so happened that because of her connect at said label, she met and talked to the 'label exec' about me. He didn't really tell her more than he said to me, only different terms:

Her-say: He thought you could sing, but you're not developed yet and nobody has the time or money to develop an artist these days.

He-told-me: You can sing, but I want you to work with 'the producer.'

Translation in industry-speak: You need to come to the table with more than a good voice; you need someone to vouch for you as an artist.

After hearing what my girl had to say, I was slightly distraught because I didn't understand what 'developed' actually meant. It's cool not to like my material - but I guess he's looking to see what my sound is? Or does development actually mean, that you have to be vetted by someone who has previous proven success in order to get put on in this game?

I went through a whole list of reasons that teetered on self-pity, but I snapped back. It's really unlike me to be so gloomy - but then again, it was that time of the month.

But in terms of Development - I feel stuck! I still haven't been able to nail down a schedule to work with 'the produer' and I can't help but feel as though I am doing something wrong. If I have access to him at my fingertips, what's my problem?

Is it money? Is it a lack of swagger? Or am I too nice, because I feel on a sub-conscious level, that he's doing me a favor? If the latter is true, then what are the deeper implications?

Recently, I auditioned for the Leimert Park Idol competition. One of the judges at the audition had such outstanding praise for my performance saying that I "performed from start to finish, like a true artist. [I'll ] go far in this industry." I took those words to heart - after all, this particular judge has written a platinum hit for Prince among many other notable accomplishments - she knows about this industry.

Still and yet, I can't help but wonder what the discrepancy is...I know I have all the promise and potential. Not unlike many others, I am standing at the gate waiting for my point of entry - but the difference is, I'm holding the key - I just don't know how to use it.

Going forward, it's possible that I need to change my perspective on some things. As I completed the first two days of competition on Sunday, I am proud to say that I am one of the top contestants in scoring thus far - but I knew I'd thrive and excel in a competitive environment, that's my nature. But what I've also come to realize that I can always afford to make adjustments and push myself to move out of what is second nature to me to obtain just a little more than I might have once reached for.

I gotta get "developed" in the way that it is meaningful.

*searching for my swagger*

Reason #1 Why Mom Can't Be My Manager...

2006-06-19T15:20:00.000-07:00

dysfunctional family dinners.

*next.*

Quick and Dirty - Weekend Edition...

2006-06-15T10:58:00.000-07:00

I went to an amazing BMI event last night and will be sending out follow-up emails today and tomorrow. It's a great start to the weekend - the panel gave me a lot of motivation and new things to consider. There's one particular project that I am looking to make happen with GV of elevatedla.com - so be on the look out. With that said, there will be few, if any, posts this weekend because I am going to be extra busy. Here's the rundown:

Thursday: DJ OK - studio time tonight. Completing 'For My Girls' and possibly starting a new joint.

Friday: Rehearsal, rehearsal, rehearsal! for Leimert Park Idol. Tomorrow night I have to:
- Pick the key for 'Sophisticated Lady'
- Rehearse: 'The Impossible Dream' (if I can find the sheet music)
- Learn what the 'World Needs Now'

Saturday: Lemiert Park Idol - Competition Day 1
- We have to arrive at 11:45a for sound check. The event is outside, which I'm not that excited about, but it'll give me more experience peforming at "unique" venues
- I am performing 'Despite What They Say' an original song.

Sunday: Father's Day - Leimert Park Idol Competition Day 2
- Same deal for sound check, but I am going to be there ALL day. All of the 'Idol' contestants will be a part of the Dionne Warwick tribute later in the evening, singing 'What the World Needs Now'

I am supposed to write with Tim on Saturday night after Idol Day 1, but I am thinking I need to take my pops out for Father's Day instead, cus I'll be tied up all day Sunday. I am thinking about taking tomorrow off from work (as a sick day) to rest my voice for this weekend.

*ciao for now*

BET Award Predictions: I Guess, You Guess Part II

2006-06-13T09:08:00.000-07:00

On May 17th, I began the countdown to the BET Music Awards. Since then, there haven't been any other posts on predictions, but with the show a mere two weeks away - what better time than now to get back into the swing of things?

Just to be clear, I am by no means an avid BET watcher. In fact, besides 106 & Park and Uncut, I can't name any other programming on the station. And not until I heard Jacquie Reid on the the Steve Harvey Morning show was I told that BET Nightly News got the ax a while ago. So for any potential blogging/intellectual elitist who happen to find this page and wonder why the attention on BET Awards - simply put: I am a musician and this is my industry. I.GIVE.A.DAMN.

Moving on...
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Best Female R&B Artist

Beyonce
Mary J. Blige
Mariah Carey
Keyshia Cole
India.Arie
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First and foremost, I'd like to say that I think it's admirable that India.Arie was added to this category or nominees - however, she won't win. Not that I don't like India or that she's not worthy of the nomination, but quite frankly she's had a very quite year compared to at least two other nominees. Beyond that, she hasn't provided anything to the music world that was fresh, innovative or really memorable. I'm not even sure what she actually received this nomination for: her songwriting skills for the Tyra show (*I'm being a smart ass*), her songwriting skills for Stevie Wonder on his latest LP, 'A Time to Love' or for the newest addition to the Gospel of India, "I am Not My Hair?"The album from which this single is spawned, isn't slated to drop until August of this year. Either way, I look forward to the next step in India.Arie's music evolution - but at this point, for me, she's plateaued.

Beyonce. I pray to the good lawd above she doesn't win. Actually, I think its a long shot. Please remind what she's done this year with the exception of that Pink Panther joint - everything else has been a DC3 effort. It's nice to show deference to the "hottest chick in the game" (c) Young Hov, but I can save my prayers for something more important like finishing my CD. *smile*

Keyshia Cole had a great debut season. She really showed her "arse" on 'Love.' And although I was slow to warm to Keyshia, I really like her and I'd like to see what she does in the future. But one great single isn't enough to pull her to the top of the ranks in this category.

Which leads me to my picks as the two top contenders: MiMi and Brook-lyn *cough* Personally, I'd like to see Mary take it away, but I think Mimi might steal this one . Here's why: a lot of critics are less than enthused by a happy Mary, thus the Breakthrough, which for me was amazing (have you heard Mary's voice?), didn't meet their expectations of the pain-stricken, struggling Mary they fell in love with. Mimi on the other hand is the iconic come back kid (literally, cus she dresses like she's 13). Mariah's proverbial fall from grace brought on by a slew of subpar albums and her single-handed to ding a (double digit) multimillion dollar recording deal with Virgin Records had us feeling like Mimi was lost forever. But the biggest hit of 2005 - We Belong Together - runs circles around Mary's first Breakthrough single "Be Without You." And through it all - terrible Grammy performances and such - Mariah is THAT Diva.

We are happy for Mary because she has got her life together and has never sounded better. But Mariah, though I begrudgingly admit it - keeps us interested and waiting.

As always, I'd like to know what you think!

Previous Prediction Post(s):
I Guess, You Guess, Part I: Best Male R&B Artist

*I'll be waiting*

I'm Emotional...So Forgive Me.

2006-06-12T11:16:00.000-07:00

"It's just one of those days, that a girl goes through"
- Monica

I am teeming on the brink of pissed off. My disclaimer is that I am emo because of my predisposed female condition, so forgive me if I sound b*tchy or otherwise, whiny. Seriously though, it has been more than a month since I met with DJ OK - who is supposed to be my main producer. Everytime I ask him to set some dates and times for us to get back to work to move closer to finishing my CD he's got some excuse:

1st: I just started working and can only do nights.

- I've been working and have only been able to work nights since we started working together, pushing my otherwise 40 hour work weeks to 70+...but I understand, you're new to this cube-life and you need time to adjust. Although, when you only work from 1p-6p I find it hard to sympathize.

2nd: I'm moving and gotta take care of apartment issues, ect.

- I feel that, DJ. You are getting your grown man on, moving out on your own. I'll give you time and space, I understand what that's like. Although I do recall moving into my apartment back in October with no furniture, sleeping on the floor with my first big concert two days later. But er'body ain't like me - I have to remind myself of that.

3rd: We can't use the studio because Hilsyde is recording and none of my equipment is set up at my spot

- Well let's get it together. At this point I am starting to feel as though I'm not a priority. I understand life circumstances, but I don't understand not trying.

4th: No, we can't set a date to meet this week cus we are recording someone for money and I don't know when it's going to be yet.

- This after I emailed him dates for the next two weeks that I am available to get some work done. At ths point, I am getting really peeved because all I've been hearing are excuses, excuses, excuses. I understand the paper chase and trying to make a living out of this music thing - but because I'm not paying, it seems that us working together isn't time well spent.

5th: Even if we record, I don't have time to mix.

- Fine, let's just start recording and I'll come up with the money to pay a mixer.

6th: We should just create to have more songs to choose from for the album.

- Well we don't have but one song completed. Why would I want to move forward when we haven't completed anything yet and I can't even get into the studio with you to create?

At this point, I am questioning his committment to this project. At one point he had 4 songs on the album, hands down. But with my other producers making themselves available and wanting to work, he's losing ground. More and more I am feeling like he thinks he's doing me a favor, instead of us being creative partners. As far as I am concerned actions speak louder than words.

Oh and to top if off, the icing on the cake:

- So you said your lawyer friend has a hook up at Def Jam, right? Do you think you could get some tracks to her for me?

HELL.TO.THE.NAW. - you can't come up with the time to work with me, but you have the nerve to ask for a favor to hook you up? Like the Roots said "it don't feel right."

What a waste of Talent...Next!

2006-06-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

I originally saw this at Nahright.com while I was at work - but checked it out at CL.com finally when I had the chance. If you haven't done so already - please be prepared to waste about 4:00 minutes of your time. Please check it out though - RnB Beef....

is so whack. If I remember correctly, 112 pre-dates R.L and his crew and Jagged Edge hasn't dissappeared from the scene since they first came out.

This beef it seems is unprovoked and downright arbitrary and quite honestly, a waste of talent (although midly entertaining). G-G-G-G-Unit, STOP!!!

A couple of things:
1. Please don't diss male RnB singers singing to a female RnB track. Especially one that talks about catering to a man.
2. When it's been years since your last record and male RnB groups went outta style in let's say 01-02, not only are you late has hell, but you've made yourself look really dumb.
3. Why 112 and Jagged Edge? I guess with B2K no longer together or even Pretty Ricky gone missing, R.L. decided to diss someone his own age even though he's acting like his shoe size. At least go after someone who is comparable, R.L. - Jagged Edge and 112 have classic RnB albums - not just classic singles.
4. Please stop teabagging Curtis "50 Cent" Jackson. You know what? From here on out - I'm gonna start calling him Daemien, cus whenever an act signs to him, you know that catastrophic things will start to happen. Case.And.Point.

*stepping off of my soapbox*

Quick and Dirty...

2006-06-06T10:40:00.000-07:00

yall I am swamped at work today. I can't wait for the day that I'm no long a paper-pushing-cube-drone... *sigh*

1. Elle's New 'Doo - peep the last post right before this for pics.
- Seriously though I think this is the real Elle B. look. It's unique and sassy - just like I am.

2. Performed on Sunday for the 20th Celebration of Achievment for YBS. I signed my first autograph! It was soo cute!
- I made some contacts and possibly booked another gig in November

3. Auditioned for the Barbara Morrison Lemiert Park Idol competition. The judges were really impressed with my performance. The highlight was when one of the judges told me that I'd go far in this industry and that my performance from start to finish was that of a true artist. Yay!

I am just trying to get back into the studio with my regular producers to get more stuff on wax. And I have some leads for new producers and performance opportunities.

*be blessed*

Coif of Glory!

2006-06-04T11:28:00.000-07:00

Check out my new mane!

Something for the summer. I am gonna add highlights in a couple of weeks.

Shout outs to Blaque Barbie...

2006-06-02T12:10:00.000-07:00

for adding 'Despite What They Say' to her Myspace page.

I know that my songs have been added somewhere because I have far more listens than page views...but it's good to know where they are coming from.

If you haven't already, check me out on myspace: www.myspace.com/mselleb

*bonne weekend*

I really, really, really...

2006-06-01T11:12:00.000-07:00

want this dress! Nicole Miller, $420 Silk Printed Gown.

*back to work*

Summer is Here...What are you Listenin' To?!?

2006-05-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say that I am estatic that summer is here (or near). Although I love Fall for the fashion (boots, coats, scarves, oh my), I must admit there's no greater season than Summer. I do have a birthday coming up during this season and as a true LA girl I am looking forward to the beach, bumping the latest summer hits with my windows rolled down, summer reading and shorts-skirts-bearing skin!

For my summer vacation, I am heading to NYC to celebrate the grown and sexy 23. So for all of my blogger friends and readers that live in the City - hollar at me!

Anyways, I've got tons of work to do today, so I'll catch you on the flipside. But in the meantime, I wanna know, in your opinion, hands down the Best Summer Songs!

My current favorite: Number 1 - Skateboard P and the Louis Vuitton Don (Pharrell and Ye')
Oldie-but-goodie: Summertime in the LBC (for all my Westcoast fam) - Warren G
More Recent Fav: Summertime - Beyonce ft. Ghostface Killah

*peace*

Goals for the Summer...

2006-05-30T10:54:00.000-07:00

My summer goals are simple:

1. Lose 10lbs
I don't think I'll look very different physically, just more toned. So for all of my people out there who may be worried that I'll lose my curvacious goodness - not to worry. It'll jsut be accentuated.

2. Networking
I haven't quite figured out what I mean by Networking, but I just know that I need to expand my creative community and strum up some more opportunities for singing. Although my ultimate goal is becoming a major-label-signed Recording Artist, at this time I'd like to pursue studio work and background singing gigs to better my skills.

3. Recording
To get as much stuff cataloged as possible for my EP and for a demo for the purposes of networking. Plus, recording is an art within itself and is different from singing live, so I can always learn how to be a more polished recording artist.

I read The Alchemist this past weekend and I am feeling re-focused on my career goals. More to come - but like Al Pacino said in 'Any Given Sunday'..."Like football, you live life Inch by Inch."

*come and get me*

Back down memory lane...

2006-05-29T16:37:00.000-07:00

So senior year, a friend of mine asked me to be a singer of a small chorus for a project he was doing for a leadership class. I said yes and joined five others in Calabasas to record the theme song at the home of the engineer. Most of you have heard the engineer's work at amusement parks across the country as he has composed and recorded many amusement park soundtracks.

powered by ODEO

Take a listen to, Team Victory! (to download)

I'm going to try and find some of my other earlier recordings to share with you all. Tell me what you think...

Honey, She's Fierce!

2006-05-24T14:56:00.000-07:00

I think she'll be bigger than Eva The Diva...or at least I'm hoping.

*one time for chocolate sistahs*

Dreamgirls...

2006-05-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

I saw this over at Cake&Ice Cream first so I decided to youtube it here for those of you who've not yet seen the featurette on the film.

Personally, I can't wait to see the film. I will say that I am still saddened that Fantasia will not be performing 'You're Gonna Love Me' because Jennifer Hudson was cast for the role of 'Effie' instead. And, while I begrudgingly confess that I too am a Beyonce fanatic, I am worried that her acting might ruin 'Deena' for me.

Jus Cus'

2006-05-22T15:18:00.000-07:00

I think Danielle is fabulous!

*that's it*

Pics from the 'Audition'

2006-05-22T10:44:00.000-07:00

So, um, months after my audition with the label - my homeboy finally sent me the phots.

(thanx, honorable)on my balcony before take off...

k, the close-up. ha ha

en route to the 'label's' LA offices...

at lunch outside of the Grand Lux afterwards...I really was happy, but I had to go back to work.

*Still in the game, waiting to see what happens with the 'producer'*

Weekend Re-Cap...

2006-05-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

Sup Er'Body!

This weekend was pretty productive:

- Worked w/ Goldfingaz again. I recorded the hook for 'What's Going On' and we started writing to a new track, working title is 'I left My Man at Home'

- So Dark the Con of Ron Howard? I'd say yes. I saw the film, The Da Vinci Code this weekend - I wish I'd spent my time handing out copies of the book to people who haven't read it.

- I read Dan Brown's Angels and Demons this weekend. It was just as entertaining and Da Vinci. I doubt I'll read another one of his novels for a while, because, even though his books are entertaining, he has formula and it can become predictable.

- Suffered through TONS of anxiety about my personal life. When will it end?

- Had dinner with my mom last night to discuss our newly formed 'Manager/Client' relationship.

Now, I'm back at work. I'll holla!

*ciao for now*

Hits Close to Home...

2006-05-19T10:52:00.000-07:00

If you are like me, you watch America's Next Top Model. You started out with excitement and glee because Tyra Banks - a premier Black model - was at the helm of this project and well, of course, reality tv is as addicting as is crack to Whitney Houston.

A loyal top model fan can name each winner and recant the most annoying contestants, their life stories and your favorite photos shoots. And being a loyal viewer myself, I was even pleased to see Tyra successfully expand her media empire to a daily talk show, most of which consisted of Top Model reunions thereby curbing my appetite for Top Model in the off season.

In my apartment we have two VHS tapes: one for Top Model and one for Grey's Anatomy. To these primetime shows, my roomies and I are loyal. And while Grey's Anatomy sated our desires for a climactic and dramatic season finale, we are left with remnants of 'Tyra-specific-inspired' disdain at the close of the ANTM season. How could this be, you may ask?

For the men out there, you are either not reading this post or you are asking yourself what is up with chicks and ANTM? Give me a second, let me explain. As for my ladies, particularly those of the ebony-hued variety, you probably know where I am headed. Tyra has crossed a line that has made us rethink our 'loyalty' as Fresh puts it. Despite the fact that our most favored ('our' as me and my friends) contestant Danielle won the competition, we can't help but feel as though it was against Tyra's wishes.

Actions Speak Louder than Words: On more than enough occasions, Danielle received countless put-downs from Tyra on her God-given features. Like Tyra's unfortunate forehead, Danielle once had a gap. Instead of mentioning it as a flaw, Danielle actually resisted closing her gap, despite Tyra's insistance. And when Tyra hinted her resistance could be the reason she was sent home, Danielle went through the procedure. Professionalism at its best.

Once the gap was closed, Tyra opened another one, so to speak. Danielle would need to fill the gap between her and the remaining contestants who weren't 'inflicted' with a country-girl dialect. Not that Danielle wasn't articulate, well-mannered and appropriate, it's just that her southern drawl prevented Tyra from being able to clearly see that Danielle was the total package - the same way Danielle's gap also prevented Tyra from clearly seeing how great she photographed.

As Slated points out, Tyra's speech-related criticisms of were not unique to the Arkansas-native. If she were being fair, Tyra would have taken issue with Jade's eccentric interpretation of the English language and Nnenna's thick Nigerian accent. Perhaps, as Slated proposes, Tyra was just trying to toughen Danielle up. We've all heard black women being referred to as 'Exoctic' versus being accepted as a standard of beauty. But Tyra, why continue to maintain the status quo when you are now a gatekeeper to the fashion world? Do you not have the power and influence to shift a paradigm? And as a 'pioneer' so to speak as a Black woman in the fashion industry, are you suggesting that Danielle's accent takes precedent over the professionalism she's continuously displayed? That somehow, it makes her too black, less of a model... unacceptable because it bears witness to her roots? Her accent is undetectable from a photo or the way she walks down the runway- what's your real issue? Does Danielle's inhibition of self make you confront yourself and that is why you tried so desperately to change her?

In the final episode, I was stupified when Tyra misappropriated Danielle's accent with her being "hood." At that moment, I decided I would never watch or support any Tyra project again if she sent Danielle home. How could she spend thousands of dollars on dental work, but couldn't give Danielle some time with a speech therapist? All the while, it appeared Tyra had set her mind on Joanie as her pick for the next ANTM winner. While Joanie has been a favorite for my roomates, she still lacked a certain level of confidence and 'go-getter' attitude that Danielle exuded. I think at this point in the show I had actually called Tyra a "crab in a barrel" out loud.

In the end, Danielle's position as the next ANTM winner was irrefutable. She was head and shoulders, both literally and figuratively, above Joanie in the runway competition. And as my roomates and I jumped around our living room when Danielle's photo was displayed as if someone had just informed us all that our student loans had been forgiven, I couldn't help but notice: Tyra hugged Joanie first in what seemed to be a 'forgive-me-hug' and proceeded to Danielle, saying "We're gonna get you some voice lessons girl."

Tyra, you got some explaining to do.

Hollar at em'...

2006-05-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

Home Sweet Gold-Filled Tooth Home...and I'm not being cynical.

Some songs should never be remade...a "rellevant" conversation.

Jay-Z is still the Ultimate Hustler...yeah, that's right.

Threshold...She Real Cool.

Late(est) Orchestration...Please rise for the Honorable.

I wanna be your #1...just keep me in the Loop.

Living My Life Likes It's Golden...er, um, certainly disorderly
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As you can see, I won't be posting today unless I am compelled by some event.
In the meantime, enjoy the links to some of my favorite blogs.

*bonne weekend*

BET Award Predictions: I Guess, You Guess..

2006-05-17T11:40:00.000-07:00

BET AWARD PREDICTIONS!

The nominees for the 2006 BET Awards were announced today. I thought it would be fun for the next couple of weeks to make predictions - one category at a time - on who will win this year.

I'd like for you all to be involved - it's been a while since we had one of these interative posts.

I'd like to know what you think and why. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------

BEST MALE R&B ARTIST

Chris Brown*
Jamie Foxx
Anthony Hamilton
Ne-Yo
Prince
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Elle's Prediction: While I love, love, love me some Ne-Yo and I'd want nothing more for him to win, I don't think it will happen. 'So Sick' was a great debut single, the only problem is, it wasn't his debut single - 'Stay' ft/ Peedi Crack (which recieved either major play or none whatsoever depending on which coast you reside) was marginally successful. 'When Your Mad' has been stable on Billboard's Hot 100 peeking this week at #18, with 'So Sick' slowly descending this week at #30 from #28 last week. Despite these radio successes and a platinum debut album, Ne-Yo is just not as entertaining as Chris Brown - who I think will take this category.

Now a word about, Ant Ham and Prince and Jamie: They won't win because BET's target audience is too young. Last year's BET award's ceremony had an obvious 'grown and sexy' appeal brought on by hosts Will and Jada Smith; leaving Omarion's performance and acceptance speech seemingly misplaced. However, there is a noticeable difference this year and it's about a decade. The the year running between this year's show and last year's has ushered in Rihanna, Tierra Marie, Chris Brown, Bow Wow, Ciara, and Ne-Yo as the dominant force in popular urban music (hip-hop notwithstanding). Entertainment is getting younger and younger - BET has probably been the best purveyors of that reality.

And so, the slender dance sensation Chris Brown is my pick for this category. For male solo artists it seems to be that they must be one of two things: 1) Sexy balladeer that drives the women crazy (Teddy P, Jahiem, Avant) or 2) Dancing pop act (Bobby Brown, Usher, Omarion). At 16, Chris Brown falls into the second category, but with his adorable dimples and developing voice it remains to be seen if he'll mature into the first. Future aside, he's had incredible success with debut single 'Run It' that had young 20-somethings (plus) asking ourselves why are we getting it on the dance floor to a 15, er, 16 year old's song. Following up in RnB star maker fomula fashion, Chris Brown released 'Yo' as his second single - a cute ballad that was probably played to death at every junior high spring dance in the country.

Despite the fact that Ne-Yo's Hot 100 standing is ahead of Chris Brown's, Brown is far ahead of the pack with three strong singles and videos to compliment. I think he's a no-brainer for this category.

*tell what you think - I'll be waiting*

That time of year again...

2006-05-15T15:03:00.000-07:00

to read:

this book is extremely motivating.

It's a long hard road...

2006-05-15T13:07:00.000-07:00

so last week, I was extremely frustrated by my situation with 'the producer.' after waiting for several months to work with him directly, he suggested that I record the songs on my own, with him providing oversight aftwards. And if you know anything about producing - this suggested scenario would have made me the producer and his a co-writer.

My first instinct was to just leave the entire situation alone, but you never know where your blessings may come from - and so walking away from any opportunity, like it or not, would not have been a smart move.

Instead, I emailed him:
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Hey [Producer],

A couple of things:

So I checked into get the scratch vocals recorded to the tracks that you gave me - and the place I'd normally go to get it done for free is now charging.

I'm kinda concerned about the expesense of recording the songs you haven't heard yet. I was hoping it'd be a more collaborative effort. I understand that you are extremely busy - but if we could just spend a day - I record quickly and have some ideas for vocal arrangements.

But beyond that, my major concern is that everything that I've sent to [label exec]so far has been what I've done on my own - and so I think he'd like get me with your ideas and style. For that, I am willing to wait, I just need to know if this is something we could make happen?

Let me know what's up!

Peace.

[elle b.]
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His response:

We can definately make it happen. Its just gonna take a min cuz my schedule is crazy right now. I hope you understand

[producer]
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Although it looks like I will be sitting tight for another couple of months - something will get done. At least, I am back to square 1.

*ciao*

[Jack Move] One Year Ago...

2006-05-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

So my girl Jamz, did a re-cap of her life one year after graduation. Since I've been feeling like things have been moving rather slowly lately, I thought I'd do this for my own personal edification.

May 05 - Walked at graduation
June 05- Finished two final classes; moved into summer housing;
decided NOT to move to Miami or DC/Maryland;
July 05- Finished summer courses; re-hired as an intern with UBOC;
Realized that in all of my post-graduate plans, music was the only constant; called DJ OK and we began working; wrote and recorded 'Ain't Gonna Cry'; Met Raphael Saadiq - he told me to send him a package when I had stuff recorded;
August 05 - moved back home; started writing more and more songs; continued working with DJ OK; began networking
Sept 05' - Submitted my 40 pg independent research project to complete my degree (got an A-) ; still working on new music; met the Beatnix;
Oct 05' - Started my blog!; began researching apartments; began process to be hired full-time at the bank; preparing for first Elle B. performance
Nov 05- First Elle B. performance at Katrina benefit concert
Dec 05- First photoshoot for Elle B. promotions
Jan 06 - Elle B. team meeting to discuss project for the year;
Feb 06 - Label opportunity emerged; postponed Elle B. project temporarily; met with new producer; photoshoot with Jerome Duchange
March 06 - Performed at USC Hip-Hop/Poetry night; Performed at DST Scholarship gala
April 06 - Performed at USC Black Alumni post-gala
May 06 - Second Elle B. performance; back ont track with Elle B. project; label opportunity on the back-burner; started working with new producer, Goldfingaz

I've done a lot of pre-work, now is the time to get the product out. I put my own project on hold to get stuff done for the label - but I still have not been able to get to work with the producer they set me up with. So I am now back on track for my EP.

Some Technical Difficulties...

2006-05-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

Presently, my blog is best viewed in Firefox.
I am working on making the changes for IE, but until then, I apologize for the inconvenience.

*ciao*

Video From May 7th Performance

2006-05-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

Exrtreme Makeover...

2006-05-14T18:41:00.000-07:00

I seriously spent beaucoup time re-designing my blog weekend. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

More updates to come soon.

*peace*

Rest In Peace, Ryan.

2006-05-13T13:40:00.000-07:00

Starting guard for the USC Basketball team, Ryan Francis, was shot and killed last night in Baton Rouge, LA. He was visiting his mom.

Although I didn't know Ryan, I am praying for his family. He was only 19 years old.

I guess MySpace is aight...

2006-05-12T15:48:00.000-07:00

I mean it has been good to me.
Today I marked 4, 242 plays.

I've only had about 3 page views,
which means the joints are being added to profiles.

Just wanted to say thanks!!!

Career Update...

2006-05-12T11:36:00.000-07:00

This weekend:
- Recording, Triflin' Woman
- Mtg with Yoel to discuss production schedule for the EP
- Try to book my next gig.
- Re-design the blog.
- Post video of my show.

*Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there*

It's a Celebration, Trojans!!!

2006-05-12T11:07:00.000-07:00

Aight, so today is graduation day at SC! I just want to give shout outs to all my friends who are walking today - this is a huge accomplishment.

Of note, I want to shout out:

- my girl, Arameh. Just one year after undergrad she's getting her Masters in Occupational Therapy. She's got big, big, plans; Ph.D and special clinics she's gonna found are just a few. I am extremely proud of her.

- my girl, Alisia. She finally made it! I met her when she first transfered to SC'; she and her mom has been such a blessing in my life. She'll be interning with the SD Chargers this summer and then off to Law School.
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On another note:
People are liars, especially at SC. This week, many members of the Black community were horrified to learn that one of their companions has been lying about being a real student. He was found out, not because he came clean, but because an old friend from HS, ratted him out to one of his SC compadres. Said SC buddy didn't hold his toungue and I don't blame him - dude lied.

The worst thing about the situation is that he was lying for three years! He coulda gotten his AA and transfered to SC' by now. Well, this is actually the worst part, he actually raised money from family, friends and his church in order to "study abroad." Ha!

He was on the executive board of the USC NAACP chapter, member of a campus ministry organization and ran a little massage therapy business on the side.

Oh well. I always thought he was strange and so I kept my distance. Good to know that I went with my feelings.
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*look for a re-design soon*

I struck Gold...

2006-05-10T10:08:00.000-07:00

finally! well I shouldn't say finally cus I've known Goldfingaz for some years now (at least half a decade). We used to sing in the Norwood Kids Choir at Rogers Park over in Inglewood. I remember then a handful of us would just get around him at the piano after rehearsal and just have a good time improvising or singing popular songs to different melodies.

Anyways, last night we got together and started working on a track called "What's Going On." The song isn't one that I would have written on my own, but it's different and challenges what I am used to - which I really enjoy. And not only is it different, but Goldfingaz is a talented musician, producer and engineer. He's on point with his RnB. And that's just what I've been looking for.

I'm going back on Thursday to finish up the track. I am hoping that he and I work consistently cus I think I could learn alot from working with him.
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In other news, special shout outs to Sang Diva for coming out to see me Sunday night. She's a fellow blogger - we'd never met before then. Thanks for believing in me.

*aight, back to work*

This Label Thing...

2006-05-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

is slipping right through my fingers.

man, the music biz is a trip.

*ugh*

Some photos from my show...

2006-05-08T20:19:00.000-07:00

Thanks again for everyone that came out to support. We were about 70 strong last night. Great turn out to just be me on the bill.

*holla!*

Tha Show...

2006-05-08T07:40:00.000-07:00

hey yall, just really quick - I had a great time at the show last night. The turn out was good, I saw so many friends from high school, met a fellow blogger, and made some new fans!

Will follow-up soon with photos and video. until then...ciao.

Quick and Dirty: Cinco De Mayo Edition

2006-05-05T08:31:00.000-07:00

Most likely won't be any posts until after my show on Sunday. Wish me luck! Hey and if you are in the greater LA area, come by Hollywood on Sunday night for some great music, a great show, and a GREAT voice!

*bonne weekend*

Someone's Cousin is going to Yale Medical...

2006-05-04T15:05:00.000-07:00

Mines!

She's gonna be an oncologist and do cancer research!

That's that Daniels blood, baby!

*as you can see I'm extra excited*

"Never Too Much, Never Too Much, Never Too Much..."

2006-05-04T13:02:00.000-07:00

of NahRight.com. It's my new favorite site.

Also,

check out my boy, the honorable. He's on the up&up in this blog game.

*ciao for now*

"I have the need to"... Read.

2006-05-03T16:47:00.000-07:00

(c) Keanu Reeves, Speed.

um, so lately, I've felt like my mental capacity is diminishing. I don't feel as articulate as I once was and I think the fall off of my mental dexterity has to do with not being in school anymore.

Got any good book suggestions?

Also, I noticed my songwriting creativity was up when I read more. In the past few months, I've gotten so sidetracked that I have neglected one of my favorite pasttimes.

*trying to get my mental game back uup to par*

and a word from my favorite trojan...

2006-05-02T14:58:00.000-07:00

Don't act brand new, you knew it was coming... Lendale White is my favorite Trojan. Looks like now, I'll be a Tennessee Titans fan.

I had the pleasure of meeting Lendale last night at the NFL Draft Celebration that he and Dominique Byrd (drafted in 4th round to the Rams) hosted at Pearl. Instead of gushing on and on about meeting him, I figured, I'd post this instead.

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(On why he feels like he dropped out of the first round and into the second round)

I can’t speculate on it. I don’t want to speculate on the reason why I did. I’m happy and excited about the opportunity to work with the Tennessee Titans. I can’t wait to get in and start winning football games.

(On how much he will use falling in the draft as motivation)

Every bit. Right now I’m working with a 31-team chip on my shoulder. Every team that has passed me up, every team that didn’t give me a shot, I’m coming for them. I’m gunning. I’m going to do everything to get healthy, get in shape and I can’t wait to start playing football.

(On dealing with character issues)

I don’t think there is anything to even bring up. I don’t feel like my character is going to be an issue at all. I’m a wonderful young man. I know the difference between right and wrong. I know the difference between good and bad. They took a shot and drafted me. They took a shot on taking me and I took a shot. I’m so excited about playing with them that it will never be a worry or a problem. I’m a Tennessee Titan and I’m excited about it.

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Peep the rest of the article here...

In My Opinion...

2006-05-02T13:47:00.000-07:00

Turns out that I really like Rihanna. I think she could mos def benefit from a great vocal coach, but I think she could be onto something otherwise. This video has me sold - she's so uninhibited.

Not the biggest fan of this song, but I loved S.O.S. and I think she's unique.

*Enjoy*

Reason #021 Why Myspace Is...

2006-05-02T13:36:00.000-07:00

Unfortunate.

*gross*

Ah, soon-to-be-quarter-life-crisis...

2006-05-01T09:01:00.000-07:00

I.am.okay.

BUT, I will say that I am becoming a bit freaked out by the fact that I am pushing mighty close to 23. I still have a youthful look, but it's my nature to become so uptight that I forget to live in the moment and appreciate the progress that I am making...and to exasperate this unfortunate characteristic, I am terrified of 25.

It's not that I don't want to get older, but I am feeling anxious. It could be that my entire life, I've prided myself on striving to be above average and suceeding most of the time - it could be that I am now a full fledged adult and I miss my childhood, but most likely it's the fact that I feel as though I am starting late. Late, in my music career.

Only recently have I begun to feel as though I am aging way too fast... here are a few reasons why:

- RnB seeems to be getting younger and younger:

older acts are trying to imulate teenie-boppers; teenie-boppers look 25

- In my first meeting with 'the producer' he asked me how old I was. When I told him 22, he asked me if that was my real age. *can be interpreted in a variety of ways*

Now, I don't believe that 50 cent is 29 or that Ne-Yo is only 23 or hell, that Alicia Keys was 21 when she first went mainstream. Age manipulation is a part of the game. And while I understand the politics of entertainment and maintaining the fantasy...it will only be so long before I am not really in my early twenties and have to lie about how old I am.

But how old will I be when I am at least marginally successful? Especially when you look at someone like Anthony Hamilton, for whom it took 10 years to get his first major release? I wonder if I've started too late!!! And today is May 1st; I am less than a year into my full-time music career.

I went to college and graduated. That was a promise that I made to myself - get your education, so that you will always have something to fall back on. But now, as I am getting the quarter-life-crisis jitters, I wonder if this is the consequence for not having faith/confidence to embark on this journey sooner. The opportunities provided to me because I went to college cannont be disregarded. Nor, can I knock myself because I chose a path and stayed on it - this is just the rode that I am on - despite its irregularity.

I told my roomate that I once wished the weeks would go by faster because working in a cubicle 8 hours a day was hell. But now that it is the first of May and 2006 is almost half gone I am now careful of what I wish for.

I may be starting late in the game by some standards. I could be getting an itch because there is a really great opportunity looming or I am just in waiting for the next level of my career. Either way, I've decided not to get ahead of myself and just take it day-by-day.

*As you can see, I've got a lot on my mind*

*Elle B. performing at USC BAA Gala
**Photo: Leroy Hamilton

Quick and Dirty: Weekend Edition

2006-04-30T17:07:00.000-07:00

Life is good. Got the singer and drummer situation squared away.

The Lakers may take the series over Phoenix and looks like they will be challenging the Clippers for an LA showdown for conference semi-finals.

In disappointing news, USC Football is going through some tumultuous times right now. Sanchez is accused of sexual assault. Booty is hurt. Jarret may be dis-qualified for next season. Reggie is going to the Saints and was the #2 pick after Mario Williams outta N.C.; Matt went #10 to the Cardinals and my Lendale went #45 to Tennessee Titans where he'll be teamates with Vince Young.

Tomorrow I expect to be stuck downtown because of the immigration rally that may block me from leaving work. I'm not looking forward to the inconvenience. I'm not apathetic - I have an opinion on the matter - but I'll opt not to share for the sake of likeability.

And I thank God for bringing me through a tough past two weeks; emotionally and spiritually.

And the day gets better and better...

2006-04-27T14:10:00.000-07:00

So I just lost one of my background singers, the Soprano. She had a death in the family and doesn't feel she'll have the right focus to rehearse and perform...

*dang*

I Have the Worst Luck...

2006-04-27T09:37:00.000-07:00

with drummers.

It is starting to seem that way.

Exhibit A:

- On my first show, my drummer (whom I've known since birth practically) backed out on me to do a show with Jon B. While I understand the 'getting-paid vs. not-getting-paid' dilemma, I was a little more disgusted by the fact that he had some random guy call me, acting as his manager, to quit the gig. This was on a Friday evening and my show was on Saturday.

In the End: Fortunately, the other musicians in the band helped out and called people they knew and we eventually found a drummer. He was amazing too!

Exhibit B:

- As tempted as I was to call my childhood friend, I opted not to. *Fool me once...fool me twice, shame on me, right?* So instead my boy, the honorable, called one of his good buddies. After talking with the drummer and discussing logistics, I thought we were set - but I guess I had a feeling. Because not more than a couple of hours later he called to quit, citing that, although he was available, it might just be too much. He's in school I can understand.

In the End: I posted an ad on Craigslist.com...

Exhibit C:

- So my craigslist post yielded three responses. The first of which is a 22 year old cat from Newport Beach. We'd been talking for the past several days about meeting tonight, until I get an email from him this morning. I get an email from his this morning stating his car was impounded last night for driving too fast and that he may not be able to make it out tonight to audtion for me. While this is not the end of the world, as I still have a week and a half until my show...my bad luck is up to its old tricks again.

In the End: I may need to call the other two drummers that responded, but we shall see.

*ciao for now*

My favorite story of the day...

2006-04-25T16:48:00.000-07:00

As a bit of irony, R (pronounce: ar-uh) takes it in the face...

Jay-Z childhood friend and Def Jam A&R VP, Ty Ty Smith, plead guilty to spraying "R" and Kelly's four bodyguards in the face with mace in 2004 while on the Best of Both World Tour.

like diddy said: 'take that, take that'

get the story here.

*personally, I think it's poetic justice - As a punishment Ty Ty has to perform four days community service - but in my opinion the mace was enough*

Duh!

2006-04-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

So as you can see there has been a little change to the page - nothing major. But since I do have a show coming up VERY soon, everything right now is geared towards that.

Imma post it again, just so you get all of the details...
If you have a myspace account, RSVP to myspace.com/sundaysol.

*ciao for now*

The Fly On The Wall Presents...

2006-04-23T22:01:00.001-07:00

the fly on the wall presents...

entry 4: april 22, 2006

it’s deeper than espresso

on one cooler than usual los angeles afternoon, i was sipping on my usual nonfatextrahotwithwhippeppermintmocha (red sprinkles optional). as i was waiting for the ‘extrahot’ part of my afternoon delight to abate, i came across this quote on my grande cup:

The Way I See It #76

The irony of commitment is that it’s deeply liberating – in work, in play, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life.

--Anne Morriss
Starbucks customer from New York City. She describes herself as an “organization builder, restless American citizen, optimist.”

i looked around to see if anyone else had heard it. starbucks had just dropped a bomb on this just barely turned 23-year-old.

commitment = freedom? whoa, whoa, whoa. maybe anne morriss had had one too many mochachocalattes when she decided to fill out this particular comment card. i mean, the emphasis we put on “commitment” in this culture is too overwhelming to ignore, or even argue.

consider the statements commonly used with said word:

this is a VERY big commitment

i have a fear of commitment

commit and DIE

ok, the last one i embellished a tad. but you can just feel the weight of negativity attached to this word, like velcro on hair. it hurts. and it is something that begins to haunt us as early as our teens.

relationships and dating have evolved (or devolved, rather) in the past few decades. we could point the fingers at the conservativeness of the 40s, the baby boom of the 50s, the feminist movement of the 60s, oil crisis of the 70s or michael jackson’s thriller album of the 80s. but in the business of pop* dating in the 90s, we made the full transformation from being courting clients to player presidents.

not that there weren’t the exception-al ones who still believed in ‘true love’ and monogamy (but that’s for another time and cyberspace).

how do i know? helloooo, i was a teen in the 90s. i saw eighth graders exchange partners like pokémon cards**.

as i got older, i realized that although it was “cool” to have a boyfriend, i also observed that that commitment was often short-lived. a speedway of hormone driven youngsters (ages ranging from 13-33) changing lanes and changing minds before you can say, check, please!

is this all in the name of sexual liberation and emotional freedom? are we really keeping our options open to otherwise avoid being tied down? or are these statements just as ms. morriss says, a dolled up rationale for truly irrational hesitation...

in some cases, the resistance to commit stems from a deeper fear known only to that individual.

but HOLD ON a sec people, what about the other 99% (give or take)? why can we all but say the word when involved with someone we REALLY like? hey, i admit, i am not innocent of pulling the commitmentphobe card once or twice in the past. but i also pulled the i’mjustsobusy card and the iheardaboutyou card. but that’s all they were, cards out of a deck of excuses that would leave an open space for the right person to fill.

the PROBLEM lies in the player that pulls the commitmentphobe card, but refuses to end the game. they want it all but...that. they like you but they’re not ready for...that. and the absence of that, is what keeps us in an emotional limbo, unable to move in either direction (either into or completely out of the relationship).

is this commitment theory really deeper than espresso, or is my cup simply a bearer of cold milk?

i think back to the times when i chose to commit myself to something (move to LA, pursue writing, get paid practically nothing while living in LA and writing) or someone (one serious sweetheart in high school). yeah, maybe ms. morriss has got a point. because if we lay the right cards out on the table, you never know, we just might win.

*the word “pop” here is open to interpretation

**pokewhat? also see: www.epinions.com/game-review-5207-5039337-39D3BD67-prod1).

dating ‘drobe no-no of the decade: stiletto, pumps! (come on! you’re not beyoncé and he’s not flying you to st. tropez. it’s no fun treading astroturf in heels. four!)

Don't Sleep On...

2006-04-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

*courtesy of concreteloop.com

yeah, yeah, yeah...y'all know about her milkshake and that she's bossy and that she used to hate a dude a whole lot. and if you are a fan of kelis already more power to you - if you're not, then DON'T SLEEP ON her! she's mos def still on the rise. the thing i love about kelis is that she's a mf'ing GDI* and has always been - even though she's following this recent entertainment trend of weighing like 75lbs - she still does it with originality.

some of my favorite kelis songs were from WANDERLAND, an album that was only released in Japan - 'Junkie For Your Love' is a classic. If I get around to it, I might post some tracks for you to dl this weekend.

*gdi= g*d damn individual

*ciao for now*

Really Doe?

2006-04-20T16:04:00.000-07:00

as you may very well know, the outcome of my initial audition with the 'label exec' yielded me working with 'the producer.' after waiting about two months after our first meeting, i finally received a cd of 14 tracks. although i think that I am a good songwriter - I did think that I could polish up and write stronger material if I had a writing partner. so, i pursued the option of writing with two of my producers, one in particular has pissed me off today!

i dare say he doesn't realize that he's offended me. the first song we wrote together went down without a hitch. the second one, i kinda took over because the melody her wrote inspired me - maybe he took that as his que to write songs on his own. but in that instance we still collaborated - i used his melody, but wrote an intensly personal song to it and asked his help on the bridge and solidifying the chorus once he could understand the full context of the song.

the next song, he wrote the melody to the entire song at home. the night we were supposed to meet, he had car problems and could only drop off a cd instead of the melody. we sat in his mom's car and listened - great melody! we decided that we'd both write something and share. well i wrote and shared and sent my initial lyrics. all melodies are maleable when you marry them to lyrics...he hadn't heard the lyrics with the melody - i hadn't heard anything from him regarding the song.

today when he calls me on his break from work, he says -

"i wasn't feeling the lyrics"
"the words don't go with the melody"
"I don't like the topic"
"I wrote a completely different song to the melody I wrote"
"I wrote the song from the other person's perspective"

*scoobie doo'd and scrunched faced I proceed*

"you haven't heard the song yet"

from that point he tells me that, he'll have his sister demo the song and send it to me...there is no other discussion on the topic. trying to diplomatic, I say:

"i'll listen, maybe we can work it out"

but really, I'm thinking...this isn't a collaboration. and having not given the song a chance or calling me to hear it, i felt like he had an agenda from the start...and you don't do that to the artist. not like i'm pulling rank, but I am, saying...don't just discard a person's work without giving it a chance - assuming yours is better (undertone of the conversation).

i'm irritated. i have no problem with constructive criticism and i guess I'm still waiting for it. I didn't send him an entire song, i sent the concept in a form and fashion that could be molded TOGETHER...

*booing him as i click 'publish this post'*

Elle's Pic of the Week

2006-04-20T09:26:00.000-07:00

so this isn't some absurd photo, but this is song was sooo necessary necessary recently! Latoya Luckett's Torn video for her forthcoming album due out this summer. I'll admit that I like this song, but I can't do a 'Don't Sleep On' post for her just yet...the verdict is still out for me.

*whatchu think?*

Quick and Dirty...

2006-04-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

1. I'm shelving a track I worked wrote for the 'label exec' because the track is limited and I think needs to be remixed...

2. My show is coming up on May 7th and I have a lot of old friends and collegues who planning on coming to the show. yay! I also have at least on fellow blogger who's coming out to show some love.

The current show listing is as follows:
- Ain't Gonna Cry (D'greg remix)
-Despite What They Say
-Triflin' Woman
-Joseph's Song
-About You
-He Ain't Heavy (remix)
-For My Girls

I wanna do a cover tune - a throw back, possibly...here's what I have in mind:
- One Step (aretha franklin)
- Love Has Fallen on Me (chaka khan)

I am open to suggestions...maybe something more contemporay? holla at me with your suggestions!

3. For the on-going project for the 'label exec' I've written 2 complete songs to the 'producer's' tracks and and 1/3 of two other tracks completed. I want to write to three other for a total of 7 choices before going to the studio.

4. My mom was recently let go (on some shadiness too) from her job (and is appealing), but has brought up the idea of being my manager.

Here are some pros and cons:
- Pro: I can trust her
- Con: She still sees me as her little girl (and I'm not)
- Pro: She's a great contract negotiator
- Con: She could be very 'stage-momish'
- Pro: She's extremely creative and thinks outside of the box
- Con: We have very different personalities

at the end of the day, I wonder how my mom would feel being my employee. There would be a contract and this would most likely be an interim position for her until she can move into another capacity (she'd really like to run a not-for-profit).

k, that's the major update with me...I'll holla!

*ciao for now*

More details to follow....

2006-04-17T16:04:00.000-07:00

@ Cinespace, Sol Sundays. Mark your calendars, more details to come...

Holla At Me...

2006-04-17T15:04:00.000-07:00

Interesting find in my tracker today...

I'm gonna take this as a good sign - I don't presently know anyone at the University of Chicago, but whoever you are, hollar at me!!!

*blog about the week to come*

Don't Sleep On...

2006-04-14T09:54:00.000-07:00

Don't Sleep On: Murs
Latest Release: Murray's Revenge
Signed By: Record Collection Music
Favorite Track (s): Dark Skinned White Girls; Love and Appreciate; L.A.

*basically my homeboy turned me on to Murs. he hit me with 3:16 and Revenge at the same time and I enjoyed the sounds. it mos def has something to do with 9th's warm production styling that makes you feel like your sitting in a big comfy chair while Murs is hollaring at you about aspects of his life. initially, I thought Murs was a borderline prick or just a complainer, but I realized he's talking about some everyday stuff - any of the things my homeboys would hit me up to talk about. So I'm cool with Murs - you should be too.*

Oh and did I mention he's from L.A.?!?

In A Lazy Blogging Mood...

2006-04-12T12:08:00.000-07:00

This is one of those old school Aresenio Hall moments...that make you say, HMMMMMM....

*pensive*

Please don't take offense....

2006-04-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

Get this video and more at MySpace.com

My friend, Lull, and his boys at the University of Washington are aspiring actors, directors...whatever. *actually Lull is going to Dentistry school* The video is pretty hilarious (could be because I know him). Anyways, please don't take offense to the language - I am testing the limits by posting this, but I think it's pretty funny.

Anyways, it's my blog and I'd like to share.

Elle's Pic of the Week.

2006-04-10T15:29:00.000-07:00

Usually, my pic of the week features a celeb, but today it's in honor of l'absurd!

Productive Weekend...

2006-04-10T11:44:00.000-07:00

What up Fam!

This weekend was pretty productive despite this cold lingering over me.

Friday night, Tuna Butter (peep the production crew links on the right), and I got to work writing to the new tracks I received from the 'producer' last week. We wrote a track called 'Addict Me' I usually don't toot my own horn, but the song is mos def fresh! Kinda has a Missy Elliot feel to it.

Saturday was spent trying to get better. Tuna Butter and I met again to start working on a new track. We didn't make much progress, partly due to creative differences. We will be working again on Tuesday night to start on a new track.

Sunday was cool. I hung out with one of my roomies and then attended Sol Sundays at Cinespace. It was a chill event - the first one for Elevated. I politicked a bit with Nakrumah from Ankore (who is also a dope graphic designer) and got to see Hilsyde perform (my main producer Oren Yoel plays the keys in the band). All in all it was a good event. Looks like I'll be heating up the stage to May 7 at the next Sol, so be on the look out.

Anyways, yall it's Monday and time for me to get some work done. I'm still trying to beat this cold. I'm in the mood for an 'Elle's Pic' since it's been a while, so if I get some free time today, I'll add another post.

*I'll holla*